30-Day Blog Love Affair:: Day #18!

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Woah.  This week has been so weird.  Everyday has turned out to be so different than I expected.  Another way to say that would be:  I cannot seem to get anything done!  All week, I have been battling my own procrastination monsters, along with what seems like a constant string of interruptions (some created by me and some by others).  The result is a somewhat dissatisfied feeling of, “Where did all my time goooooo?”

I think I’m starting to feel the time crunch that creeps into my life every time I have a big trip on the horizon.  I’m leaving for Bali in three weeks and suddenly it feels like I’m leaving tomorrow.  Ya know this feeling?  I’m also juggling so many different projects right now, it’s enough to make my head spin.  A problem of abundance really.  But honestly…

 All I really want to do is PAINT. 

I’ve been itching to get in my studio all week, but with said procrastinations/distractions running the show, it’s taken me until today (Thur!) to finally squeeze in a couple hours of painting time.  And, guess what?  When my house was finally clean(ish), my emails were (mostly) taken care of, my stomach was full, my phone stopped beeping at me for a few minutes and I could finally step in front of my canvas…

I felt totally uninspired.

Like no inspiration…at all.  Every brush mark felt forced and everything I did made my paintings look worse.  So, what do I do in these moments?  I literally have to force myself to take my own damn advice:  Light a candle, change the music, move my body, try a new color, turn my canvas upside down, paint with my non-dominant hand—whatever it takes to light that elusive spark of inspiration, knowing full well that it still might refuse to show up.

Thankfully…it decided to show up today.  I’m not really sure what shifted, but after an hour (at least) of pure struggle, I found myself suddenly in the zone—the one where everything feels easy and I’m just kinda of following my brush around like something else is in control. I think it might have had something to do with the color purple or black diamond stamps or ???  Who knows.  I try not to question this kind of magic.  Instead, I just say my THANK YOUS and carry on.

Here’s a glimpse of what flowed through today when I finally let go and got out of my own way…

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I’m quite curious to see where these will all go, but at the same time, I’m awfully glad I don’t know—that would just ruin the surprise :)

xo flora

20 Comments

  1. Wauw well done

  2. Very nice…and congrats for pushing through! I, sadly, leave Bali tomorrow!

  3. Hi Flora
    So glad you did push through – I’m loving those new colours you’re using – has this something to do with Spring in the Northern Hemisphere??? Loving reading your blog each day now, I look forward to it, like a letter from a friend…..thank you…

    Marilyn

  4. Thank you so much for sharing! So glad your muse showed up and helped you create these beautiful paintings! Love the colors you have been using!

  5. Thanks for sharing…been there done that!

  6. So inspiring Flora, thank you

  7. That is really cool !

  8. It is so helpful to hear your creative struggles, I can certainly relate! I love reading your daily blog posts, and will miss them when you are done. Much the way I missed your class after its completion.

  9. I’ve been enjoying your daily posts, Flora. This one especially. It’s so helpful to read that you continue despite feeling uninspired. That it took you at least an hour of painting to feel like something was working is so helpful! Sometimes I think that if it doesn’t come within the first 15 minutes, then it’s useless. :-) Thanks!!

  10. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

  11. I’ve had same experience this week… Too many distractions of the business kind… Hope to remedy this today… Right after yoga class, blood test, walking dog… Hmmm… I think something’s going to have to give…
    Good to know you still find time to have paint explorations….
    I want same!

  12. Yes, I love what happened after that initial struggle.
    The designs are beautiful, and the colors happy!

  13. Oh, Flora, the art looks so beautiful and peaceful. It’s so good to hear your words to push through. It helps me. I’m in a huge slump. I’ll be brave and try playing with some kind of a purple.

    Thank you for sharing.

  14. LOVE where you went with these.

  15. I have really enjoyed and been inspired by your April blogposts. These new paintings are very beautiful. Such trust and such beauty coming through you. Thank you for brightening and sharing!

  16. Thank you Flora for taking the time to write out your frustrations and the solutions to those frustrations. Very helpful and inspiring to know that I must do the same..and I appreciating hearing the mental tools you use to push through!!

    I am appreciatively listening!

  17. Keep inspiring me, I am so looking forward to the on line class in May!! MARILYN

  18. That made me laugh…. having to force yourself to take your own advice! AND you proved it works :)

  19. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the way your painting went in this post – wow. Really beautiful Flora. Am really enjoying the daily posts, thank you. x

  20. Love them Flora! It’s nice to hear that YOU still have those days too!! :)

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